why a strong internal reality matters

2009-getting fucked over, wasn’t sure what i wanted to do in life, got lured by ‘romy’ some dude i used to hang with, in quick-money making schemes and wasting time.(dude was just projecting fake value towards me, because he wanted to stay with me)

2010-preparing for sat, and other bullshit. weak boundary function throughout the year = 0 productivity. things changed towards the end of the year, i decided to fuck everything and make my life my own. live my life the way i choose to.

2011-weak reality fucked me over a lot. getting involved with ‘waraich’ and fucking up my life in march/april, then with ‘gill/cj’ in june, and with a fucked up hoe in august, then september/october with parents, november december with homeissues and bawa.

2012,tillmay2012 – January onwards till may – involved in ‘music’ bullshit, cj, and completely fucked my path and purpose in life.
jan/feb-getting fucked over by ‘chabu’. that was some real stupid shit.

and even now people are trying a lot to allure me into their own plans.

one life-that’s all i have.

its my own responsibility to be a razors edge and live my own life, not be involved in other peoples plans no matter how alluring they may be(what the fuck u on b).
my life is my own responsibility and its my priority to provide for myself financially asap, there is no bullshit here, so i can live my own life and completely remove any neediness.

becoming self reliant- being radically self reliant which 90% comes from getting my finances handled through magic this year, will cure me of most of the bullshit.

this is my life.

i must have a strong internal reality and not ‘choose’ to get fucked over by people. this is insane. i’m on some real fucked up shit. gotta be quick and get shit handled. this is my life. i’ma get it handled.

ayn rand’s shit, and fight club, along with some more resources will help me get centered. i’ll be reading these at nights.

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doing what i’m doing – creating my life – living the way i want

working on skills, and can’t wait till this phase is over. i’ll finally get to pick up a deck of cards for magic. i am excited Smilie: :)

i saw daniel madison’s dvd last night – lethal

beautiful shit right there

i’m doing what i’m doing because i’m giving myself the permission to live my life the way i want to live it, to do shit i want to do in life. like xcm, skateboarding, etc.

but to get to that point of play – i have to give myself financial freedom .

also, i’m creating financial freedom through what i love doing, for example magic.

i want to live my life to the fullest.
so I’m creating the opportunity for myself.

learning skills, then getting work in magic. learning stuff like daniel madison’s lethal. indulging in what i love.

life is what you make it.

1love

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freestyle

i sit back, images of thick stacks, so i plan this life/
st kitts and neevis if plans go right.. haha/sands so white… lavish life. that’s whatsup nigga i’ma get money

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take my breath away

drivin’ an r8 across the city lake walkway, cruising, on low speed. that’s whatsup in a few months my nigga. take my breath away bumpin on stereo. just love

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productivity notes

Daily goals.  Without a clear focus, it’s too easy to succumb to distractions.  Set targets for each day in advance.  Decide what you’ll do; then do it.

No-comm zones.  Allocate uninterruptible blocks of time for solo work where you must concentrate.  Schedule light, interruptible tasks for your open-comm periods and more challenging projects for your no-comm periods. (my office time is a no comm zone when parents aren’t home)

Mini-milestones.  When you begin a task, identify the target you must reach before you can stop working.  For example, when working on a book, you could decide not to get up until you’ve written at least 1000 words.  Hit your target no matter what.

Timeboxing.  Give yourself a fixed time period, like 30 minutes, to make a dent in a task.  Don’t worry about how far you get.  Just put in the time.  See Timeboxing for more.

Batching.  Batch similar tasks like phone calls or errands into a single chunk, and knock them off in a single session.

Tempo.  Deliberately pick up the pace, and try to move a little faster than usual.  Speak faster.  Walk faster.  Type faster.  Read faster.  Go home sooner.

Early bird.  Get up early in the morning, like at 5am, and go straight to work on your most important task.  You can often get more done before 8am than most people do in a day.

Ready-fire-aim.  Plan your day, on how to do it. Don’t spend too much time, not more than a couple minutes. After you have planned, immediately start taking action. Planning doesn’t need to be perfect, you can adjust course along the way. Action is a must though.

Dilemma Minuteman
1. Ask yourself if this dilemma/decision is absolutely necessary to be figured out in the present moment. If it doesn’t support the goal you are on now, chances are you can delay it, and delaying it can get you a clearer stance on it.
2. What is the information required to make the decision?
3. With all the information at hand, take 60 seconds to make the decision, start a timer.
4. Stick to the decision when you come out of the 100 seconds, and take some action to put it into motion.

Agendas.  Provide clear written agendas to meeting participants in advance.  This greatly improves meeting focus and efficiency.  You can use it for phone calls too.
Is the meeting absolutely necessary?
Does it support your current goal?
Absolutely no communication if it opposes any of your goal
Write the gist of what you want to discuss beforehand

Punctuality.  Arrive early. ( apply it to schedule : start your day 10 minutes earlier, start every task 5 minutes earlier)

Gap  productivity.  Making breakfast, waiting in line, waiting for someone, driving a car, doing anything in which you can use your present time to do something constructive, for example listening to an audio course while driving, reading an article until something is getting cooked, or microwaved etc.

Continuum.  At the end of your workday, identify the first task you’ll work on the next day, and set out the materials in advance.  The next day begin working on that task immediately.

Slice and dice.  Break complex projects into smaller, well-defined tasks.  Focus on completing just one of those tasks.

Single-handling.  Once you begin a task, stick with it until it’s 100% complete.  Don’t switch tasks in the middle.  When distractions come up, jot them down to be dealt with later. – Focus.

Randomize.  Pick a totally random piece of a larger project, and complete it.  Pay one random bill.  Make one phone call.  Write page 42 of your book.

Add-ons.  Tack a task you want to habitualize onto one of your existing habits.  Water the plants after you eat lunch.  Send thank-you notes after you check email.

Denial.  Just say no to non-critical requests for your time.

Recapture.  Reclaim other people’s poor time usage for yourself.  Visualize your goals during dull speeches.  Write out your grocery list during pointless meetings.

Scotty.  Estimate how long a task will take to complete.  Then start a timer, and push yourself to complete it in half that time.

Pay it forward.  When an undesirable task is delegated to you, re-delegate it to someone else.

Decaffeinate.  Say no to drugs, suffer through the withdrawal period, and let your natural creative self re-emerge.  See How to Give Up Coffee.

Conscious procrastination.  Delay non-critical tasks as long as you possibly can.  Many of them will die on you and won’t need to be done at all.

Troll hunt.(once a month)  Banish the negative trolls from your life, and associate only with positive, happy, and successful people.  Mindsets are contagious.  Show loyalty to your potential, not to your pity posse.

Nuke it!  The most efficient way to get through a task is to delete it.  If it doesn’t need to be done, get it off your to do list.

 

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important

its very important that you do not ‘plan’ your life around external events.

for example : badboy lifestyle workshop in july. if you make a goal to attend, and then start moulding your dreams&dedication program around that, that’s a sureshot route to failure.

All these other things you may like to do or want to do, are completely irrelevant right now.
Planning around external circumstances, and then trying to ‘fit in’ your planning and scheduling into certain ‘time-frames’ creates stress, anxiety and failure.

What you want to do is irrelevant right now, the only thing relevant is 1-skills,2-getworkinmagic. After these 2 are done, then you may have the liberty to contemplate what needs to be done.

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follow your heart

follow my heart. that’s what it is. whether or not to take the right action or not? whether to live in anxiety or blow past it? everything’s answered if i follow my heart – be who you’re meant to be.

follow your heart. keep it real. chase dreams, make it happen. always follow your heart in life. live your dreams son

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watch yourself

alright latley i’ve been bullshitting in all areas of my life.

I need to stop being a dumb motherfucker and do the right things.

health – follow diet and daaysched+exercise programs
Life – do skills, then magic, and next.

stay focused man. take action.

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steps to success – choosing to follow.

1.seeing myambition today and doing the reverse calender today.
2.waking up on time whatsoever today morning to grind. tndo
3.doing the monday review and keeping shit real.
4.start following dayschedule now

chase dreams son

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there will come a day

there will come a day when i finish ‘skills’ program. a day, when i’m working my first night as a table hopping magician. a day when i start that next business, a day when i step into the shaolin temple. a day when i play all star nba. a day when #1billboard sells 25million records. a day when i hangout with q-tip, a day when i hangout with jeff allen, a day when i hangout with shifu yan lei, and a day when i roll up my sleves in cern. a day. because life is what you make it son, and this is my life. a day when i step into my r8. a day.

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